1st try !

Whoah people. I can't sleep. Haiyaaaa so sleepy but can't sleep is one of the worst feeling in the world. Ececehh. Hahaha.

So guys ! Today I'm gonna use ''I'' rather than ''saya'' as usual. Oh come on. People change you know. Hakhak. 

I tak boleh tidur then pergi punggah shawl ana dengan harapan nak balik Kb nanti nak cilok sehelai dua yang cantik cantik lah kan. Hahaha. But at last. I found a scarf. People called it as ''tudung'' in malay. Okay. So tengah belek belek tudung tu, teringat dia pernah suruh pakai tudung even sekali. Hm hm I rasa nak try lah after heart broken ni kan. Hahaha and guess what ? I rasa not bad jugak muka I bila pakai tudung. Macam comel jugak lah. Hahahahahahahahahaha okay enough. 

P/s : Abaikan muka tak tidur, mata panda but still wangi *guarantee that*

SKYPE !

I am waiting for my cousin act. We both planned to skype at this hour after he finished his futsal but he's not showing up -.- 

                                                              *I will kill you for this, mighul -.-*

Sooooooo, I go read our conversations and realized, 25th February 2012 was our first skype ! Wow so close. Don't noticed that before. *I'm writing this on 26th February 2013. *It still count I guess* 

                                                          Haha I am okay now. Just for now :D 

Happy ? Alhamdulillah. Good for you. Congratulations then :) Okay Assalamualaikum guys. Got to go. *larilajulaju*

A Month.

"Kalau dia sayang, dia pasti akan cari. Tak kira lah susah mana"

"Kalau dia tak cari ? Esok genap sebulan.."

"Dia tak cukup sayang. Atau tak pernah sayang."

..........................

-

Nisa, 22.
Have been foolish. Have been hurt. Have been treated like a trash.

Nisa, 22.
Still give the forgiveness. Even know, he don't deserve that.

Nisa, 22.
Teach me how to smile again. Teach me how to laugh. Teach me how to know, what happiness feels like.

Nisa, 22.
Used to wear fake smile. Keep praying he will asking for my hand back.

Nisa, 22.
Yes. A foolish person you'll never met.

Nisa, 22.
She's dead.

She's dead.

I trusted you. I believed your words. Every single word. Astaghfirullah. How could you do this to me?

Just because you felt that just for 3 days, you broke up with me ? Am I too easy to let go ? Am I not worth to fight for ? Ya Allah. Im in pain.....

Where's your promises ? You will never leave me again ? It wont happen again. You're asking for my trust. You told me, you cried. Everything's just a lie ? Yes. Apa dosa I dengan you Jimmy ? Apa dosa I dengan you ? :'(

Like a stupid person. Always be me. Im waiting for your call. Im waiting for your text. Like a foolish person, I cried every single night. It was hurt. Im dying. Im speechless. Too easy for you to say that. 

"Bagi I satu lagi peluang. Baru tahu betapa serious nya I kali ni" - your words for my sisters. 

Ya Allah. Dia tipu :'(

This is not to get your attention. But I am asking you... Kalau I mati, jangan datang rumah I. Jangan ikut sampai ke kubur.. sebab I tak perlukan air mata palsu on my funeral. Sebab I dah mati, tak dapat dengar lagi penipuan you lagi. But i will make sure you will get my death certificate. Because you need to find someone else to make fun. 

It almost two month.. Semua tu ikhlas dari hati you ? Instead of giving up, why you can just keep fighting ? No. It's not from your heart. You didn't really mean it. You say that because you are afraid of losing me. It just because you feel lonely. I am no one. I am no one....

:)

I feel great.

I am happy.

With him.

Alhamdulillah :)

Hope the best for both of us.

Please.

Don't give up on me.

Hello there.

My name is Nisa and I'm with him.

Hehe >.<

Feeling.