H.

Imissyou.





Imissus.

28/6/2014

Wan....

I can't describe this pain. I can't breath properly. I don't know what to do. Where should I go? 

You left. 

I miss you really bad. I miss you. I love you. Too much :'(

Al-fatihah.

KN

K's :)

7 month.

I hate myself.





Because stuck at the same place.





For loving him. Still.





I hate myself.

8th JUNE 2013

It have been a year abah. Never have a chance to meet you, to know you but deep in my heart, I miss you.. Abah. We miss you :'( I hope I would get that chance later. 

I don't know why. Even I'm not your family, sometimes I would call out for your name :'( Even you're a dad to someone that I used to know.. 

I promise you this. I will never stop pray for you. Never. Dear Allah. Take a good care of abah. Al-fatihah and yassin for you abah :'(

Oh if you could see me now 
(Oh if you could see me now) 

It was February fourteen, Valentine's Day 
The roses came, but they took you away 
Tattooed on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm 
Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone 
And I'll never get to show you these songs 
Dad, you should see the tours that I'm on, 
I see you standing there next to Mom 
Always singing along, yeah arm in arm 
And there are days when I'm losing my faith 
Because the man wasn't good he was great 
He'd say music was the home for your pain 
And explain, I was young, he would say 
"Take that rage, put it on a page 
Take the page to the stage 
Blow the roof off the place" 
I'm tryna make you proud 
Do everything you did 
I hope you're up there with God 
Saying that's my kid 

I still look for your face in the crowd 
Oh if you could see me now 
(Oh if you could see me now) 
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow 
Oh if you could see me now 
(Oh if you could see me now) 

If you could see me now would you recognise me 
Would you pat me on the back or would you criticise me 
Would you follow every line on my tear stained face 
Put your hand on a heart that's was cold 
As the day you were taken away 
I know it's been awhile but I could see you clear as day 
Right now, I wish I could hear you say 
I drink too much and I smoke too much dutch 
But if you can't see me now that shit's a must 
You used to say I won't know I will until it cost me 
Like I won't know real love till I've loved then I've lost it 
And if you've lost a sister, someone's lost a mom 
And if you've lost a dad, then someone's lost a son 
And they're all missing now, and they're all missing now 
So if you get a second to look down at me now 
Mum, Dad, I'm just missing you now 

I still look for your face in the crowd 
Oh if you could see me now 
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow? 
Oh if you could see me now 

Oh... Oh... 
Would you call me a saint or a sinner? 
Would you love me a loser or winner? 
Oh... Oh... 
When I see my face in the mirror 
We look so alike that it makes me shiver 

I still look for your face in the crowd 
Oh if you could see me now 
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow? 
Oh if you could see me now 

I still look for your face in the crowd 
Oh if you could see me now 
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow? 
Oh if you could see me now 

Oh... 
You could see, you could see me now 
(You could see, you could see me now)

# If you could see me now - the script

:D

Went to Tesco with Mr.A gave me a new experience  Shopping with a guy, can gives you heart attack you know ! Hahaha.

Dia ajak I pergi Tesco sebab barang barang dia banyak yang dah habis and certain things dia lupa nak bawak balik KB. Haha. Think that my class will start at 6pm for tomorrow, should be no problem if I give a accompany :D

He picked me up at 830pm and tesco here we go ! Hahaha. Oh my. He drives too slow ! 30km/h rasa macam nak tumbuk dia. Ish. I yang pilih troley sebab I tak suka tolak troley yang ada problem. Entah apa2. Tapi kat dalam tesco tu, dia yang tolong tolakkan act. I tukang tengok je. Haha. Oh my macam mana bila I got married nanti. Jalan berdua macam ni should be fun ! Can't wait ! Hehehe.

Oh oh we fight a lots ! Dia nak ambil je barang tu tanpa tengok expired date -.- I yang kena ingatkan dia, check the packaging bla bla bla. Lepas tu yang kelakarnya, I pilihkan seluar tidur untuk dia. And and the shaver too ! Hahahahaha its funny I think. I choose the ice cream for him too and he complaint it tastes weird on the next day. Hahaha sorry :p Just know he loves to eat fruits so much :)

Had our late dinner at kfc. I rasa I banyak buli Mr.A lah. Dia pon macam redha je. Hahaha. We ate snack plate and I tak suka makan ayam bahagian isi. I suka bahagian peha. But we just got 1 peha je on his plate. I tahu dia suka bahagian peha jugak but he still give me his plate. Awww so adorable. Thank you. Talked about his family and he asked me to come to his house due to his brother's wedding. Sounds

interesting. Will consider that :)

1st try !

Whoah people. I can't sleep. Haiyaaaa so sleepy but can't sleep is one of the worst feeling in the world. Ececehh. Hahaha.

So guys ! Today I'm gonna use ''I'' rather than ''saya'' as usual. Oh come on. People change you know. Hakhak. 

I tak boleh tidur then pergi punggah shawl ana dengan harapan nak balik Kb nanti nak cilok sehelai dua yang cantik cantik lah kan. Hahaha. But at last. I found a scarf. People called it as ''tudung'' in malay. Okay. So tengah belek belek tudung tu, teringat dia pernah suruh pakai tudung even sekali. Hm hm I rasa nak try lah after heart broken ni kan. Hahaha and guess what ? I rasa not bad jugak muka I bila pakai tudung. Macam comel jugak lah. Hahahahahahahahahaha okay enough. 

P/s : Abaikan muka tak tidur, mata panda but still wangi *guarantee that*